This is an uncomfortably open book of a post, but one that I'm kind of ok with writing. It's odd how sometimes being honest over the internet is easier than opening up to a friend or loved one. Maybe it's because we aren't used to censoring ourselves when we write. Forums have erased that filter we have always been taught to have when writing, and that has given way to the impulse post. The demand for instant information just encourages us to rush through out thoughts, clarity be damned.
Lately, I have been thinking a lot of how I come across to people, and how they view me as a person. I think I'm pretty easy going, but I do have a certain set of standards when it comes to things like entertainment. I'm not so easy going when it comes to going to the movies, let's say, because I know that, for the most part, after the movie I'll just be more disappointed and $20 poorer than when I went into the theater. Does that make me a negative person or a realist? The majority of the time I'm totally comfortable with this decision to be cautious, but occasionally the look of disappointment on my girlfriends face because she wants to see a film that I won't go to sort of makes me feel like a jerk-off. Why can't I suck it up and just deal with watching a shitty movie? I don't know.
Same thing goes for beer. My thoughts are that if I'm going to pay $6 ($7 with tip) for a pint, I want it to be a good beer, or at least what I think passes for good beer. And if I don't see any beer that's worth that to me, I say that. Aloud. In public. Doses that make me a whiner? An asshole? Or just someone who knows the value of a dollar? I used to think nobody gave a shit about what I said, but a few times recently I have been told I'm negative, and that I hate everything and blah blah blah blah ( I don't know, I stopped listening). Which just isn't true. I like lots of shit, I'm just picky about the quality of the shit I like.